By Ellice Weaver (Avery Hill Publishing)
ISBN: 978-1-910395-66-0 (pocket HB)
We’ve all experienced something of an interpersonal revolution thanks to Covid-19 and the measures used to counter it, as well as the undeclared global depression and rising functional poverty in developed world that followed. However, it’s wise to remember that relationships between friends and especially family members are – and always have been – complex, varied and nothing like fiction would have us believe…
Most folk lead ordinary lives with forgettable days, minor affections and grudges and lots of tedium and bills. All days and everydays are not grand affairs and soaring missions undertaken by grand heroes and threatened by Machiavellian villains. Cradle to grave, it’s just carrying on until you finally stop. We grown-ups call it “life” and Mel is utterly mired in it.
Her existence is about plodding on, making ends meet, being underappreciated in her job and just getting by, but her mental and emotional loads take a big hit when brother Matt hits a pothole in his dreams and moves into her spare room.
Soon everything that was annoying and unsettling about their shared past together is slipping out, resurfacing and occupying her bandwidth: his unrealistic expectations, daft schemes, lack of attention and selfishness. It’s just like when they were kids all over again…
Mel might have been unhappy, but at least she was settled and now it’s all Upset, Change and Challenge, and Matt hasn’t let the passage of time mellow him at all. He’s no less obnoxious and pig-headed than when he first left home. Still, he has his good sides too, and it’s some comfort to feel kinship rekindled and re-share experiences. Some moments even afford a smattering of long-delayed clarity, but it’s obvious they have very different ways of being grown-ups.
They haven’t quite got to the stage where they can talk about Dad yet though, but it is good to have someone to share her decidedly rare medical condition – or perhaps rather unique kind of hypochondria? Above all, Mark is Family. Mel might be permanently peeved with him, but who else could she share such intimate concerns with. There’s certainly no one else ready to help the way Matt is…
… And thus the situation quietly slowly spirals, as Matt infuriatingly settles in, expecting and encouraging his sister to change whilst sinking back into his old selfish, foolishly ambitious patterns of behaviour and daydreams of creative superstardom. He even brings in his weird new girlfriend Jill – the one Mel technically introduced him to…
When he gets Mel to drive him and Jill across the country to a ridiculous podcast convention things get both painfully honest and truly revelatory…
Simultaneously placid and tense, painfully pedestrian and infuriatingly abstract, this darkly comedic interaction is a “Post Coming-of-Age” tale of ordinary people, afflicted like we all are with the binary condition most adults experience: the feeling that life’s leaving you behind whilst you are convincing yourself that you’ve never even caught up in the first place…
Born in Bath and based in Bristol, Ellice Weaver became a freelance illustrator after graduating from The University of West England and moving to Berlin. Past clients include The Guardian, Washington Post, New Yorker, The Times and Transport for London. A compulsive storyteller, her first graphic novel Something City was released in 2017 and awarded “Indie Comic of the Year”.
Her second full narrative outing, Big Ugly is a slyly entrancing, graphically compelling observational essay on expectation – familial, personal and professional – and how it can founder on the forge of humdrum subsistence, daily disappointment and diminishing dreams. It also reveals just how much early days and sibling support (or not) can shape and affirm, and at what price…
© Ellice Weaver, 2023. All rights reserved.
If you’re London based/adjacent – or just a bit keen – there’s a launch party for Big Ugly on 22nd June. It’s at Jam Bookshop in Hackney Rd E2 7NX and launches an art exhibition that will run until July 9th.